i need a new job... a job that challenges me, not stresses me out. derz a difference between d 2...and it is i who define dat line... i told mah manager dat i was gonna quit... he won't let me go... dat means i have 2 more weeks... after d conference, i can make my decision... so yah, i think i will go 2 d conference den quit... watever... mah appointment was cancelled 2day.. i had one and it was cancelled!!! i can't believe it! but datz okei... coz i don't really care.. newayz...datz all 4 now... till next blog...

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right now, medyo naiinis pa rin ako sa isang babae kc nakakainis sia! ang feeling nia eh para akong napaka-judgmental na tao, na may mga ginagawa ako na hindi ko nmn ginagawa. ewan ko pero ung taong un, gs2 ko sia pero nakakainis ugali nia. basta, nabwi-bwisit ako sa ugali nia. pati na rin sa mga ibang mga tao na nasa leadership position, nakakainis ang mga ugali nila kung minsan. sabagay, cguro this is God's way of teaching me patience, love and forgiveness. basta, ipagdadasal ko na lng na kung ano man ang maging decision ko 2ngkol sa grupong yan eh nararapat.

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i just saw matrix reloaded...saw it at 10 p.m. may 14....and...IT ROX!!!!! wow...it rox....datz all i can say...

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kung minsan nakakainis ang mga Christians na kung mag-act eh para silang hindi Christiano. may mga iba jan sa tabi-tabi na ang sama ng bunganga nila, tapos tinatawag nila sarili nilang Christiano. Ang nakakainis pa kung minsan eh hindi nila na re-realize na nagiging stumbling block cla sa mga ibang tao. ewan ko, kung minsan mas mabuti pa mga ibang unbelievers kc ang buhay nila eh mas maayos pa kaysa sa mga ibang "Christians" na ang sama2 nmn ng bunganga! pero ewan ko kung anong gagawin ko...maiintindihan ko pa cguro kung ang actions ng isang tao ay hindi karapat-dapat sa Panginoon kung non-Christian sia, kya lng nmn kung tatawagin mo ang sarili mong Christiano, then dapat ipamuhay mo rin ang Christian life na nakasulat sa Bible d b? "A Christian ipso facto is Christlike?" yun ang sn ko. i guess, mali ang statement na i2 dahil madami akong kakilalang Christians na hindi cla Christ-like!!!

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i am so mentally stressed out! i recently got hired 2 b a sales rep 4 vector marketing...and the job sounds easy, but i don't think so! i applied last wed. and i got in! i was hired on the spot and my training started the very next day. so thursday, friday, saturday was my training sessions...and i have made 3 demos so far. now the demos are easy and stuff...itz just d fact that i have 2 do everythin' datz stressin' me out! i have 2 set up my appointments and i have 2 get referrals and blah blah blah. thank God i made a sale. 1 in 3...whatever! i don't really care if anyone buys (well i do bcoz of commission...) but it does feel sucky if one doesn't buy anything from you. and i don't like my sales manager...his name is Donald. he makes me feel like crap if i don't sell anything...but i like my manager, Trent...coz he's kewl! i really want 2 quit!!! the sound is made to sound easy as pie but u know wat itz not!!! and a job that mentally stresses me out constantly is a job that i can do without. itz not like i don't like pressure...pressure is nice...given the right goal. i guess i don't deem the prize worthy enough to be all stressed out about! money is all gud but if i don't get time to enjoy my money...datz not gud! and wid diz job, it hasn't even been a week and i'm already mentally stressed out! and itz not because itz a difficult job, i mean itz pretty easy. u call ppl, set up a demo, do ur demo, and leave, hopefully with a sale. the difficult part for me is the whole calling up ppl dat i know and asking dem and i just don't like d job. i like d money, i actually like d job...but d stress of making appointments is just a hassle i can live without. i wish they can just give us appointments to go to and stuff then we do our demos for them. not this whole randomness thing! too much freedom! positive freedom....u stupid concept that lurks in the shadows....tsk tsk tsk. someday i'll come home to u positive freedom...given the right time, right place...i will find you and seize you! stupid agency hasn't called me yet! which is y i'm kinda jobless...but not really coz derz a job w8in'4 meeh...itz just i don't like it. but d pay is good and itz mundane and u know wat...as much as i said i wanna get challenged, vector is not challenging me (well in a way it is challenging) however, itz not a good challenge (or itz a good challenge, dependin' on how i look at it) but i say itz not a gud challenge coz i wanna quit!!! challenge for me is me wanting 2 b a better person... kinda like sum ppl (aka Faye...my fellow GKS peer) challenges me (can't w8 till d fall season starts sis... lolz) also, i guess i don't like d environment (well d environment is nice!) in vector but itz just way 2 stressful 4 meeh 2 do all d appointments stuff! if it was all done in advance, i would really like d job. i need a job in an office! sumthin' involvin' d gov't would b nice! vector is really stressin' me out! i wanna quit...but i can't...yet...coz i want my prizes! so i think i'll let this week go by...then get my prizes and ask if i can work part-time instead. newayzz...i'm going 2 overcome any problem bcoz God is with me! and He's been makin' His Presence known the last 2 services dat i attended. the sermon was geared towards me and i know itz God's way of saying hello and tellin' me 2 listen up and do sumthin' for Him! thnx God for ur everlasting love...THROUGH IT ALL... luv ya God wid all mah heart and all i have within me!!! thank you for being my God...a true and living God...Who is from everlasting to everlasting...Who can help me overcome anything and everything!!! THIS IS HOW WE OVERCOME!!! We overcome by the blood of the Lamb!!! Praise Yehshua, my Emmanuel...

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