k, d past 2 days (march 23 and 24) i talked to 2 ppl about sumthin' and it went well, so i thank God 4 dat. no hurt feelings, and we actually had a nice convo about it...with no yelling or hurt feelings. wow...we've come so far!!!! hahaha. itz kewl coz 4 meeh diz is d 1st tym dat i've really talked to ppl about sumthin' dat dey did. i'm not really into d whole rebuking ppl thang jus coz i feel rather inept and i don't feel lyk i have ne sort of right to tell others wat dey're doin' wrong. but i don't think rebuking is a matter of sum1 feelin' high and mighty about demselves and doin' or sayin' sumthin' 2 another person out of condescension or looking down at them, itz an attitude of love and gentleness to another brother or sister and saying look, you may not know this but what you're doing could affect you or others in a negative way and it's completely up to you if you would lyk 2 change that certain behaviour or not but i feel that you should know that someone may not view it in the same light as you do so just be careful about your actions and words. i had nothin' really 2 gain by rebukin' sum1... in fact, i have everythin' 2 lose jus bcoz dey may not c it as an action done out of love and dey wud either h8 meeh 4 it or jus attack meeh. but i'm jus glad dat everythin' went well... and i hope that if i do sumthin' dat causes sum1 2 b disheartened dat dey wud have d courage and love to rebuke meeh in an appropriate manner. on a side note, i've been reflecting on mah lyf and i dunno... i jus find myself to be completely lacking. i feel lyk i haven't really accomplished nething wid mah lyf. not only have i not accomplished nething, i don't feel lyk i've even done nething wid mah lyf. i'm really trying hard not 2 b discouraged by these facts. i hope that i can use this as a motivation to being spurred to greater heights in every aspect of mah lyf. lst nyt, i ended up talkin' 2 stevie, a guy i jus recently met 'n talked wid. it was really kewl and sumwat freaky coz wat he shared he was goin' thru, were things dat i have at one point gone thru and by d grace of God has overcome more and more in the recent months. so it was really kewl coz we jus had an amazin' convo about stuff dat was close 2 his heart. it was really kewl coz he was so open about things dat r happenin' in his lyf... i wish i cud be more open 2 ppl... der r yet barriers dat need 2 come down 4 meeh. oh yah, and last friday, after d unity meeting, which i think went well!!!, we went 2 jimminy's haws and watched r&j wid surround sound on his L-couch. pretty kewl i must say. met his parents and dey're so kewl. i lyk his haws. itz big. and clean. not lyk mah haws. small. and dirty. oh well... i shouldn't really speak coz mah parents have always wanted 2 move 2 a bigger haws 'n itz meeh who's so against it... jus coz i love our house's location. itz central to almost everywhere i need 2 go. and we live near a transitway so itz not much of a hassle 4 meeh 2 travel back home... even if itz l8 at night... or early in the morning! hehehe. i dunno...right now... i just want to live a life that is so pleasing to Him.. that at the Bema Judgment i can tell God of all the wonderful things i have done for Him and His name. that my life is a pleasing sacrifice unto Him. and that all my thoughts and words and actions and deeds are according to His will and in the likeness of Christ. i jus have 2 continually remind myself dat I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! thank You my Yehshua for loving me so much... You are my reward... You are my all in all... You are there... through it all. Je t'aime mon Seigneur!!! AND SCENE

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