Now that you (pl) are gone...

So a couple of days ago, my whirlwind romance with the Canadian projectiles have come to an end. I got to spend 6 glorious weeks with them and they were such a great source of encouragement for me. It's been awhile since I've felt loved and appreciated in a very expressive way so their leaving has left me feeling somewhat alone again. I enjoyed hanging out with them and getting a chance to talk to the guys one-on-one has been amazing. David was also an amazing roomie and super bonded during our times together, talking till 3 a.m. in the morning. It helps that he gives really good massages.

When the time to leave happened, there was definitely a lot of waterworks, especially with the two. So many rants and vents and laughs happened between us that it was just really hard letting go.

And so, here I am, almost about to go soon too. Feeling good about leaving, anxious about it too, and all around uncertain as to what the future holds. But apparently, "He's got the whole world in His hands" so I have nothing to fear.

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Relief and Release

I recently just came back from a week in Spain and it has been amazing. It's been awhile since I can say I'm happy. I feel like a huge knot of pain, anxiety, *insert negative emotion here* has been lifted from me. And I know that it's God who has done it... so it is God whom I will praise.

Spain was just an awesome time of meeting with God and meeting new people. I love getting a chance to hang out with so many people who are of the same mindset and has the same heart about reaching the lost.

I loved getting a chance to meet up with so many people and having lots of good heart-to-heart convos and just random convos about anything and everything. I really had an amazing time!

God also used this time to show me the vain imaginations that I have been allowing myself to believe and affect my life. He also allowed me to see the destruction that sin can do when I allow it to enter my life. There's a part of me that feels "woe is me for I am undone... for I am a man of unclean lips and live in a perverse generation". He is just so greatly amazing and I am so amazingly small in comparison.

Thank You Jesus for meeting me where I'm at. Continue to "rid me of myself" because I belong to You. Lead me, Lord... lead me to the Cross.