Changes

I have been noticing myself changing. I have noticed changes within myself. I don't know sometimes if they're good changes... but it comforts me to know that i am changing. I'd rather change for the worse than be stagnantly good.

My heart is slowly being encased in ice. I grow cold to those around me. But in the same way that I grow cold, my heart is also feeling the cold turn to lukewarmness to warm. Such warmth that I can wonder if such love is good because I ache when I feel it.

My mind twirls, spins, is confused. My heart wants to experience freedom from the bitterness, yet exercises bitterness towards others. Confusion.

I am weak. It's going to take awhile for me to control the mind. To direct my mind. To subjugate it. To control it. To make it submissive.

That's definitely a change I can't wait to come.

A new title for my blog and a new template

I was looking at Lydia's blog and Angela's blog and they have changed their templates. And I have wanted to change my template for awhile... so now I did.

I think this template and title is a sign of the evolution in my life.

Here's to new things for the new year!