Prayer Room Poem

When e'er I look
When e'er i see
The throngs of people
A multitude, so many

With eyes downcast
With a smile upside-down
With heads hung low
With hearts torn apart
I wonder, Do you see?

Do You see all the misery?
Do You hear the agony?
Do You feel the tragedy?
Do You have the remedy?

How long, O Lord
How long till they see
See Your love and Your mercy
Will You come for them
Like You came for me?

I lay these doubts
I lay these fears
At the cross, where my burdens You bear
Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light

Hope and forgiveness,
Love and mercy
Well up within me, as I draw near
You are El Roi, the God who sees

I will be still and know that You are GOD
You will be EXALTED over all the nations, even North Africa

Happiness is...

something that I have not been feeling for awhile now. It seems to elude me. I do have brief glimpses, from time to time, but it has not yet stayed with me. The moment I think I have it, it slips away, seemingly into oblivion.

This year has definitely been one of the toughest, most challenging, year I've had so far, to the best of my recollections. Because of it, I have had to rely on God so much more... much more than I have ever had before. I'm pretty sure that after processing the year, and the lessons to be had, I will come out a better person. Right now, it's more on the bitter part. My teacher said: "Les gens sont malheureux a cause de deux choses: sensations d'inutilite et sensations vide." I would say, to oversimplify everything that has been going on in the past year, this is it. Feelings of worthlessness and feelings of emptiness can really cause someone to not be happy.

There has been a lot of struggling through things this year, but at the same time, there has been times of triumph. Sadly, those times are few and far in between.

And, I don't necessarily think that I have joy at this point too.


Here's hoping to future happiness... and future joy!


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